Changes of my life

I went to Singapore on 20-1 dec. This trip was seriously change my life. This was started when my mum was pushed in to the operation theater, i was waiting outside and pray for her hopefully this time the surgery will be success since the doctor are so confident on the surgery. On 5.45, everything started to change. A nurse coming out ask my dad to go in. I started worried bout it. After 10 minutes, my dad coming out and he told us the surgery was fail. The tumuor cannot be cut and so how long is the life. This was seriously break my heart. If i never say yes or comfort u to this surgery maybe everything was fine, but i have done everything on it.. I only can looking at u suffer the pain. I can't do anything to u. I'm sorry!! sorry!!! mum....... Everyone keep saying the doctor are so professional in Singapore but how can it be fail. why should u giving such a big confident to us but in the end u break it. U have bring away my happiness in my life, u bring away my sweet home and what u bring to me is just sadness for me to suffer day by day?Should i still believe u in others treament way?? Should i still support my mum for the treament or just agree with my mum opinion stay in kch? ............
What can i do for u in all the time? my life cannot live without u, without u there are no meaning at all. Mum, not matter anythings happen, u have to be strong on it because all of us are beside u. We will support u in all the ways and we need u in our life. So, never give up! Mum, forgive me if i done anything wrong before.. i love u, mum..