Black, dark friday

Early morning woke up sent my sister to airport. Everyone suppose to be happy but end with flooding scence. Well, should get used to it. Back home, looking at mummy so sad for her living, i know what u thinking but u seriously don't know what more to say, sat down quietly looking at u, staying next to u. A phone rang, dad called. 公公passed away. I was shocked to hear that. I went visited u 2 weeks before, u looked weak, but i never thought of this will be happen. Next week is ur 97 years old birthday, aren't we suppose celebrate together? I not close with u, even grandma and my aunts n uncles. U guys still my relative with blood relation esp my dad. Past to week i saw u so weak, i'm so pity of that but i did nothing. Today heard ur news, my mind was totally blank. Then, mummy went hospital for medical checkout, doctor asked her to admit to hospital. Again the same situation to put the stand inside. So, now 2things crush together. Left me alone here, which way should i go. As a grandaughther suppose attend the funeral, as a only child in this time suppose stay here to take care of mummy. Lastly, i choosed to stay here not following dad back. I'm really sorry i can't attend, even though this is ur last journey. Dad was busying the whole day, i knew he was tired and sad.What can i do? lol.. I have to face it all by my own, no one for me to lean anymore.
One day, it happened so many things. Should learn how to take it. I'm just so lucky to have all my aunts n uncles help. U guys are so nice to me, helped me a lot. Million n billion of thx to u all..
Tired day but can't sleep.. =_=

kit kat back

Think.. Think.. Think..
Finally i back to real life now.. God give me strength to face all these problems.. Thx very much..
Hide and seek this game should end. No more searching or walking around. Just stand still to look for what i want. I have to admit everything i feel, no more wondering around. Hopefully everything will be fine..
走到桥头自然直. :)

Random post

Reading someone post reminded me about last year again..
Bring me down again..
Life always wasn't fair to everyone.. esp to those who are always kind heart, good people but they never gain back good result. Unfortunately, their life getting darker and darker. Sunshine become dimmer in their life. Confidence and happy life make up the life to be stronger, but how long it will stay, forever? No.. To a patient, mostly it last for few days and it gone. To build up the confidence again, it takes time. Between the time, the sadness and lost way bring you down again and again. Everyone is always there for you, giving you support, because of us u have to jia you!! No matter what going happen, always say "jia you" to your own. Don't leave us behind here, alone. We are praying for u deep in our heart everyday.
Just a random post, just something reminded me.
I'll never give u a promise, but just try my best.
(if u r reading this post, just want to say thx listening me bla those stuff. i'm fine here.. A smile :] )

miss it again..

Woke up at 9 early in the morning.. Called to go for breakfast with family at the coffee shop next to KPJ. Every time i went i only ate the laksa there and never try other food, the laksa there is the top rank in Kch. ~nice~

Then, went to market with mum and sis..

Saw a lady keep looking and smiling at me...

Who's that?? Gosh!! Is Pn.Voon!! She look so slim, so thin. I can't even recognise her.. She looks more prettier and younger. So damn pei fu her can get into this look..

Food always can't control.. haha..

Congrates teacher, u did it..

Back home, asked to go study again. Holiday-study zzz..

Suppose to go for badminton in the noon, missed it again..

Half a year i never touch my racket, really missed it so much..

Don't know how many times i have pang sei my frens there and break my promise with them..

Really so sorry to them...

U guys are the 1 who put me interested on it but now i'm always not allow to go..

Millions of reason not to let me go.. LOL!!!

Sometime i really need some exercise to active back my brain cell and body cell..

It always be control..

feeling

Emotion make up ur mood everyday..
smile always make ur life colours..

feeling come make me moody,
take me away, away...
u come make me happy,
memorable time...
i standing under the rain,
u holding an umbrella for me..
i fall down,
u there for me..
i'm afraid to fall, it hurt..
take time to prove
trust u

Dead blog awake

Dead blog awake.. yawn...
3 weeks mock exam not over yet, left bio n chem paper 1 on 28sept.
Hari raya got 1 day off but CNY never got holiday for it.. That's Malaysia Boleh lol...
Well, exam is a survival game to me. Either i going to pass or fail but still work hard to win.
How many A's?
never dare to think or to aim. Science sub include sej are the worst sub for me.
Spm easy to pass hard to score.
I'm now so damn regret i never drop my bio early. I should drop it but everything is just too late..
Hopefully miracle happen for my spm, pray for it.. :)