wootz.. dead blog awake after a month..
hmmm.. what's day is today??
IS tuesday!!last day of spm besides my chinese.. Woohoo..
(jump high high.. scream loud loud)
Waited for this day since the beginning of the year. Spm finish i'm going to do this and that, but now, what am i going to do?? hmmmm...
play, eat, sleep online n bla bla bla..
Well, spm... 12 subjects, 27 papers.. wow..
i'm gonna congrates to myself n all spm cadidates.. u did it.. everythings going to be over soon.. U have strongly walk through it..
Thinking back..
i was so relax during spm, everyday on9, play, sleep..
i did study( burn midnight oil), wake up early study.. woohoo..
Is that me?? haha...
How's oeverall exam??
Is still okay but some of it really really hard but forget about it.. I'm not going to worry my results for 3 months.. stupid man..
NOW, no more school, tuition, study..
i gonna miss my frens,teachers n everythings.. I MISS U GUYS so so much eh..
SMK GREEN ROAD, 5S5...
never ever forget each n everyone of u... XD
Suddenly got many thought pops up on my mind..
yeah, what things?
I dunno.. Random stuff.. o wat? sorry, guilty, accept the fact and bla bla bla..
Feeling make my day - up and down, left and right..
Looking at u, i'm just useless there. Pray to God day by day, that's all i can do.
See u cried, i can't control my tear, but i choose to stay strong.
Chat with u, u make my day.
Looking at ur message, i feel the warm.
Thinking about u, make me confusing.
Dreaming about u, sweet memories turned back.
Close to u, am i doing the right thing?
Care a bout u, I'm scare of falling.
If i ever hurt u o u o u, i'm sorry here and never ask u for forgiveness. Maybe i'm a heartbreaker, far from u but killing u. Whatever i did do, said or any stuff whether right or wrong, is past. Whatever u did said, i will try to accept the fact, but i need time. I knew it for so long, but i never think this day will come so fast. Promise u, i will overcome everything by the time.
Early morning woke up sent my sister to airport. Everyone suppose to be happy but end with flooding scence. Well, should get used to it. Back home, looking at mummy so sad for her living, i know what u thinking but u seriously don't know what more to say, sat down quietly looking at u, staying next to u. A phone rang, dad called. 公公passed away. I was shocked to hear that. I went visited u 2 weeks before, u looked weak, but i never thought of this will be happen. Next week is ur 97 years old birthday, aren't we suppose celebrate together? I not close with u, even grandma and my aunts n uncles. U guys still my relative with blood relation esp my dad. Past to week i saw u so weak, i'm so pity of that but i did nothing. Today heard ur news, my mind was totally blank. Then, mummy went hospital for medical checkout, doctor asked her to admit to hospital. Again the same situation to put the stand inside. So, now 2things crush together. Left me alone here, which way should i go. As a grandaughther suppose attend the funeral, as a only child in this time suppose stay here to take care of mummy. Lastly, i choosed to stay here not following dad back. I'm really sorry i can't attend, even though this is ur last journey. Dad was busying the whole day, i knew he was tired and sad.What can i do? lol.. I have to face it all by my own, no one for me to lean anymore.
One day, it happened so many things. Should learn how to take it. I'm just so lucky to have all my aunts n uncles help. U guys are so nice to me, helped me a lot. Million n billion of thx to u all..
Tired day but can't sleep.. =_=
Think.. Think.. Think..
Finally i back to real life now.. God give me strength to face all these problems.. Thx very much..
Hide and seek this game should end. No more searching or walking around. Just stand still to look for what i want. I have to admit everything i feel, no more wondering around. Hopefully everything will be fine..
走到桥头自然直. :)
Reading someone post reminded me about last year again..
Bring me down again..
Life always wasn't fair to everyone.. esp to those who are always kind heart, good people but they never gain back good result. Unfortunately, their life getting darker and darker. Sunshine become dimmer in their life. Confidence and happy life make up the life to be stronger, but how long it will stay, forever? No.. To a patient, mostly it last for few days and it gone. To build up the confidence again, it takes time. Between the time, the sadness and lost way bring you down again and again. Everyone is always there for you, giving you support, because of us u have to jia you!! No matter what going happen, always say "jia you" to your own. Don't leave us behind here, alone. We are praying for u deep in our heart everyday.
Just a random post, just something reminded me.
I'll never give u a promise, but just try my best.
(if u r reading this post, just want to say thx listening me bla those stuff. i'm fine here.. A smile :] )
